Happy Christmas (Part Deux)

Oh my god how wrong could I have been. Can't get any worse? oh yes it can.....

OK so as it is known I have split with my partner right? OK so, worse bit is because he has put me out of work as a result, I'm broke! so I am stuck here. Now the reason for the break up was that he is a control freak and I JUST CAN'T LIVE LIKE THAT ANYMORE!! So to make matters more complicated we ran the business together...equal (YEAH RIGHT) partners with 49% share holding each...he won't buy me out the company so I'm kind of captive...you following this so far?

Well we decided to shelve all hostilities till the new year and enjoy a Christmas and my daughter Hannah has come to stay (which is great because there is safety in numbers right? WRONG!) Now OK the relationship was over ages ago (June to be precise) but, this idiot really sealed the deal when he fronts up to my 20 year old daughter!!! On Christmas Day!!! So well you can't get much further over the 'line' than that so here I am on Boxing Day packing my bags and in the next few days I will be gone from here......

What kind of a guy fronts up to a 20 year old girl? One with a serious problem. So it's official Christmas SUCKS.... For obvious reasons I don't flaunt this on Facebook as he watches my profile so please, keep comments on here only..

Happy Christmas

You know I don't know why I am so happy at Christmas as I have so many problems at the moment. Your basic unemployed, no income, about to be homeless type of problems but, I have my health, I feel great and I have an amazing daughter and friends.....so Happy Christmas to you all....2010 can't be any worse now can it? xxx

It's all about me....

This is me....taken on the 6th of December. A little over two months after surgery.

How do I feel?........... you know I can not remember when I last felt this good. It's almost like being 21 again, which is pretty good as I am in fact 41.

I have found a smile that has been missing for some time.

I am no longer in pain.

I feel like I have not felt in years.

I feel happy.

I feel content.

I am unemployed but, I do not feel in despair....

I feel like I can take on the world and despite that fact that I have some major problems to deal with, I am not at all worried and still find it easy to smile.

I feel self confident.

I feel feminine.

I feel atractive.

I can think with clarity.

I have energy.

I have 'Get up and Go'

I can sleep through the whole night without waking. I never slept all night for 3 years prior to this.

I feel radient.

I have wonderful friends who have made so many wonderful comments to make me feel so great.

I have the support of my daughter.

I laugh and smile all the time.

In short it's the most amazing feeling in the world.....I feel reborn.

The person you see in the photograph is the person that I was born to be....

I feel alive!!

I am here honest...

Just a quick note.

I am here honest it's just I have some major shit going on over here and I am having to pay some serious attention to job hunting etc. So please stick with me while I get my act together.

I thank you for your patience.

Fe xx