House Hunting...

OK so after a slight amount of incompetency on the Letting Agents part the house has gone...bugger!

So I have just come back from viewing another and the agent has just rung me and said that the landlord wants to sell after 6 months!!! So that's a none starter...have rung up about another one in an outlying village.....if they will let me have my dog I may view tomorrow afternoon.

I have only looked at two houses and I am bored already!!!!!

New beginnings

Ok So lets get it together here. So after much wrangling and shouting and then talking the whole thing is settled...FINALLY...it's only taken 6 months!!! I'm sorry I have been away so long but, I have just been 'through the mill' a bit really.

Right well today I have been and looked at a house to rent and it's lovely. Just been fully refurbished and decorated. A real 'Blank Canvas' on which I can 'Paint' my life. I will have a lounge, dining room, kitchen, bathroom and three bedrooms....the one I want is wonderful with a polished wood floor...lovely. Lucky for me I still have all my bedroom furniture and bed so my room will look great.

As for the others, well they are going to look a bit bare! You see I sold all my stuff when I moved out of my old house... Anyway, I guess the best thing is that I will get to rebuild my life and my home.....

If you want to have a look around my potential pad the click the link below.

http://www.rightmove.co.uk/property-to-rent/property-14287815.html?minPrice=400&maxPrice=500&minBedrooms=3&maxBedrooms=3&displayPropertyType=houses&oldDisplayPropertyType=houses&pageNumber=1&fromSummary=true&backToListURL=%2Fproperty-to-rent%2Ffind.html%3FsearchType%3DRENT%26locationIdentifier%3DREGION%255E977%26insId%3D1%26radius%3D0.0%26displayPropertyType%3Dhouses%26minBedrooms%3D3%26maxBedrooms%3D3%26minPrice%3D400%26maxPrice%3D500%26maxDaysSinceAdded%3D%26retirement%3D%26sortByPriceDescending%3D%26_includeLetAgreed%3Don%26primaryDisplayPropertyType%3D%26secondaryDisplayPropertyType%3D%26oldDisplayPropertyType%3D%26oldPrimaryDisplayPropertyType%3D%26letType%3D%26letFurnishType%3D%26houseFlatShare%3Dfalse%26x%3D54%26y%3D11

Happy Christmas (Part Deux)

Oh my god how wrong could I have been. Can't get any worse? oh yes it can.....

OK so as it is known I have split with my partner right? OK so, worse bit is because he has put me out of work as a result, I'm broke! so I am stuck here. Now the reason for the break up was that he is a control freak and I JUST CAN'T LIVE LIKE THAT ANYMORE!! So to make matters more complicated we ran the business together...equal (YEAH RIGHT) partners with 49% share holding each...he won't buy me out the company so I'm kind of captive...you following this so far?

Well we decided to shelve all hostilities till the new year and enjoy a Christmas and my daughter Hannah has come to stay (which is great because there is safety in numbers right? WRONG!) Now OK the relationship was over ages ago (June to be precise) but, this idiot really sealed the deal when he fronts up to my 20 year old daughter!!! On Christmas Day!!! So well you can't get much further over the 'line' than that so here I am on Boxing Day packing my bags and in the next few days I will be gone from here......

What kind of a guy fronts up to a 20 year old girl? One with a serious problem. So it's official Christmas SUCKS.... For obvious reasons I don't flaunt this on Facebook as he watches my profile so please, keep comments on here only..

Happy Christmas

You know I don't know why I am so happy at Christmas as I have so many problems at the moment. Your basic unemployed, no income, about to be homeless type of problems but, I have my health, I feel great and I have an amazing daughter and friends.....so Happy Christmas to you all....2010 can't be any worse now can it? xxx

It's all about me....

This is me....taken on the 6th of December. A little over two months after surgery.

How do I feel?........... you know I can not remember when I last felt this good. It's almost like being 21 again, which is pretty good as I am in fact 41.

I have found a smile that has been missing for some time.

I am no longer in pain.

I feel like I have not felt in years.

I feel happy.

I feel content.

I am unemployed but, I do not feel in despair....

I feel like I can take on the world and despite that fact that I have some major problems to deal with, I am not at all worried and still find it easy to smile.

I feel self confident.

I feel feminine.

I feel atractive.

I can think with clarity.

I have energy.

I have 'Get up and Go'

I can sleep through the whole night without waking. I never slept all night for 3 years prior to this.

I feel radient.

I have wonderful friends who have made so many wonderful comments to make me feel so great.

I have the support of my daughter.

I laugh and smile all the time.

In short it's the most amazing feeling in the world.....I feel reborn.

The person you see in the photograph is the person that I was born to be....

I feel alive!!

I am here honest...

Just a quick note.

I am here honest it's just I have some major shit going on over here and I am having to pay some serious attention to job hunting etc. So please stick with me while I get my act together.

I thank you for your patience.

Fe xx

I think I should start living by some of these...

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit card debts every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Sometimes, just agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time some time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come - this is particularly true at my age of 90!

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

What was I thinking?

OK, so you remember when you were a kid right? You remember how your parents used to go nuts at you because 'something' you had done was so stupid or dangerous that it worried them? Not that you managed to grasp the concept of what was the actual problem because, all you knew is it ruined your fun. You all with me on this?

Right well here are two of my absolute classics that stick firmly in my mind....

1) Water, water everywhere.

Back in the day when I lived in Newark (Nottinghamshire not New Jersey) the road we lived on would flood. More importantly though so did all the fields around us. You would get a good couple of feet of water as the River Trent would burst its banks. Well this was a great time for us kids because we could 'paddle' around in the middle of the usually busy road!! Great Fun.

Well on one of these floods my brother Howard and I decided that the paddling side was just a bit to boring and we thought we would step up the pace in the beach quality Rubber Dingy that we had. So away we went to garage and got it out and blew it up with a foot pump, grabbed the oars and set sail off up the road!

Oh what a lovely time we had paddling along enjoying the view and passing what ever piece of junk had been swept away by the flood...like buckets, bits of trees, you name it, we passed it. Round the Rugby Pitch we went boating between the goal posts at both ends. and then heading out across the Cow Field towards the local Cricket Pitch. When we arrived there we moored outside the Club House and ate whatever it was we had taken from the house for our trip. Re boarding our dingy we set sail for the crease because, we were trying to find the edges of it through the murky dirty water, that is when it happened. The next thing we knew we were face to face with a very red faced man in fishing waders....Dad! I tell you this now, he DID NOT look happy!! We were dragged back to dry land, where we were both promptly grounded for the next week.

Reason: Flood water is dangerous and contains god knows what bacteria, you don't know what the current is like and you cant find the edges of banks and ditches, not only that you could drown plain and simple!!!

2) Lets make a den.....

Now my Uncle used to have a yard round the back of our Grandma's house where he participated in all sorts of businesses...from House Removals and Clearances to Paper Baling for recycling. Eco Friendly huh? Now apart from the fact that we got to go out with Grandad to move people from one house to another. We also liked to play around the yard, which Uncle David (My mums brother) did not mind at all. Additionally, it was really interesting watching them press and bale the paper and stack it in the yard. The bales were then covered with canvass to stop them getting wet.

Now talking of getting wet, Howard (yes him again) and I discovered that we could play around under the bales and not get wet when it rained because of the canvas covers....awesome! So we made a den or two in the different stacks but, the flaw in the plan was the distinct lack of light which made it very dark in there...so we needed a source of light. Now at this point I think most people would go get a Torch or Flashlight...Not us we got.....CANDLES!

Oh yeah we dotted all these candles round in our little paper dens. We played all day and then went home, only after we had extinguished our candles. Think we were kind of missing the point somehow!

Well it was no surprise that one day Uncle David showed up at our house and told how he had found the candles etc...It is also no surprise that we got grounded...AGAIN!

Reason: Fire kills, end of story!

Needless to say as a parent myself I can see what the issue was with these incidents and I am grateful that my own daughter never did anything quite as stupid.

As they say 'Hindsight is a wonderful thing'

'Ship of Dreams'

Oh yes here it is my little pet project! Designed to keep me quiet whilst I'm recovering.

OK so this is a 1:350 scale model of the ill fated liner R.M.S Titanic. It measures two and a half feet in length. Well if you are going to build the Titanic an itsy bitsy model just will not do, you need the biggest one out there! Oh and of course the most accurate historically.

So this first picture shows the hull completely untouched and exactly as it comes out of the box. Now I have never made a modle before so I am roaming into completely unchartered territory here...bit of a mans world thing this really.

So my first job wat to trim any rough edges from the moulding process and of course to admire all the little Portholes which are two sizes..0.8mm and 1.2mm as shown below....

OK so it's not the best picture I know but, you can see how many of the little devils there are. Now every single one of these needs to be drilled out and I work on the theory that if you are going to do something then do it properly. You can paint the hull with the portholes not drilled but, i figure that it's just not going to look the same...

Bear in mind that I am planning to import from the United States the Photo Etch (Brass!) Railings and benches for this thing.

So moving swiftly on, a good two and a half hours later and a lot of plastic dust. I finish drilling out all the Portholes in the Hull. No I did'nt count them. What I can tell you is that if you look at the photo of the bow and at the top layer shall we say, before the cut out section...you can just make out the Portholes of which there are 15, now work your way back to the clearly visible 16 Portholes below the windows, ok so I am guessing I drilled a lot of Portholes yesterday!!!!!

So here is the result of all that drilling. That's the bow seen from Port Side. I have assempled the base that comes with the model but, at this time I am currently thinking that if this comes out the way I want it to, then I think a better quality base will be needed. I have also been told that once complete a Plexi Glass case is in order as the thing is a dust magnet!

Hmmmmmmm......

The finished Hull, trimmed and drilled and now ready to be masked of to spray paint.....

Sitting on the supplied base that I will use as a working environment till completion. Hopefully today I will start preparing the deck ready for glueing.

The original Titanic never completed it's voyage..hopefully mine will.

2009 AQHA UK Hunter Under Saddle Championships

Well Finally, here it is the 2009 AQHA UK Amateur Hunter under Saddle Championship that has been the focus of my entire life!! I can not even describe or put in to words just how much qualifying for the Championships meant to me and of course to TC.

Two and a half years ago this horse was in pieces, Emaciated, Chronically lame with a condition called Laminitis that had been caused by continued trauma to his front feet. Sad fact is that all it would have taken to protect his feet and legs was 5 minutes..yep that's it...5 minutes to put a set of protective boots on...is that really so hard to do? That lack of boots resulted in horrific cracks to both front feet which resulted in the Laminitis and TC having to have metal plates screwed to his feet to hold them together. Starving him as a punishment was just downright cruel.

I have poured time, money, energy, blood, sweat and tears into that horse. You know what? it's worth every second and every penny and every tear. The road to recovery has been a rocky and emotional one. However, I think that we have arrived at a better place. It's always difficult to capture the mannerisms of a horse.

When TC arrived he was a state mentally and physically. Check out the photos in this Facebook album on his own page!!! http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=64352&id=41550445778&l=91abd1afd6

The Photo's are in Chronological order and I have selected the 'best' ones although I use that term loosely!!

When I watch the video I don't see the placing, I don't see the fact that my idiot left leg was so useless (because of my health problems) I could not help him pick up the correct lead. A mistake that promptly ricocheted us to the bottom of the pile. That said we were not last we finished 5th (one was DQ'd). I don't even see the fact that he is still very novice.

What I do see is a horse that functions and is happy to do his work, a horse that is no longer crippled with pain but, is pain free and enjoying his life again. TC will never forget his treatment and on occasion has issues but, he does know that I will never treat him that way and that I always bring him food and water. He also knows that just for the hell of it I show up at his field and just spend time with him, that simple scratch and rub go along way to healing a troubled mind.

So enjoy with me 10 minutes of sheer pleasure and happiness as I sit up on top of my horse and, in my mind, the world and show that love does actually conquer all.

Bling, Bling, Bling!!!

It's here, It has arrived......

Just check out my latest piece of bling. This is the Buckle that I have for winning the Sean Dillon High Point this year.

The award was calculated over the four Fenland Shows that were held this year and presented to the Sean Dillon offspring that accumulated the most points. This of course was my own TC or Zero Turbo Charge!

Now I am just waiting to be able to get into some jeans so I can wear it....

Sometimes it all goes wrong....

OK so sometimes stuff is not as plain sailing as you thought it was going to be, and sometimes you just wonder why it's happening to you.

So here we are on the 22nd of October, some 25 days after my operation. I feel better, yes. Although I am now a couple of weeks behind in my recovery.

You see the op went smoothly as did the initial period in hospital (4 days) I came home on the Friday and all appeared to be OK until the Monday. That is when the pain started and other side effects, I just thought it was normal although the bleeding did prompt me to call the hospital ward to check. A few sleepless nights did not help either and the pain was increasing, eventually I ran out of painkillers and on Saturday it seemed to have subsided. To the point that a friend took me out for coffee and cake! Yummy! I then was picked up by them to go to tea at their house and had delicious home made Italian...I just love Italian food...I once made a Cannelloni from scratch!!

However, at 3am on Sunday morning I was in a mess, doubled over in pain and unable to sleep I felt terrible. I struggled on till morning but, to no avail, I could not walk, I was running a temperature and by 3pm I was unable to manage the pain. So I was rushed to the Hospital A & E.

They filled me full of Morphine and shuttled me over to a larger hospital where they had on call Gynae Doctors. I arrived there about 8.30pm and was put in a side room to await an examination. The morphine was wearing off...i was starting to hurt again. At 10.30 approx I was seen by a doctor who gave me a full exam and said I had an infection. I was admitted and finally settled on the ward by midnight.

Monday was a barrage of Canula's and tests. I was suffering from Low Blood Pressure and chronic Pain. They sent me for an Ultrasound Scan which showed an internal bleed and a collection of blood in my abdomen. The first threat of further surgery came...

My surgeon arrived on Tuesday and was very reluctant to put me back under the knife, he was reassuring and wonderful as he always is.

They pumped fluids in using an IV drip to try boost my blood pressure with bags of proteins. 48 hours later the blood pressure was normal. So on Wednesday they removed the canula. 6 hours later my blood pressure plummeted back down and they again contemplated further surgery, they set my status to 'Nil by Mouth' in case the theatre beckoned and again reinserted another canula in my left hand. More fluids......then my temperature shot up......running a fever my mother arrived to find me shaking under a sheet on the bed complaining of the cold.

Thursday morning and I felt much better but, oh so very tired....I slept most of the day and hardly got out of bed unless I needed the bathroom. Everywhere I went I took 'Dave' the Drip stand! Thursday night meant a brand new series of Scrubs! I owe JD, Turk and Elliot my sanity, they kept me smiling through the whole thing.

Friday they said I could go home but, they had found a second collection on my left side which is draining naturally...as long as I understood that this would bleed out at some point I was allowed home, I had to see the consultant on the Monday to check on me after the weekend. I did see him and I feel much better, nowhere near where I should be right now but, at least I feel better than I did.

So right now I look pretty awful and have some ground to cover recovery wise but, hopefully I should be OK once it all settles down...and I won't speak of this again. This is the first time that I have felt well enough and coherent enough to blog.

I did ask 'Why me?' and then realised that I was younger and fitter than all the others I have seen have this operation, so I was better equipped to deal with the problems and the pain...so I guess I would rather it be me than them...

The other side

Hey, I'm back. I'm tired and sleep a lot. Can't do very much either but at least I am here and at least everyday will be an improvement.

Right so I need to tell you guys all about the championship and I need to tell you other stuff too. So I'll try upload the video to you tube today and get posting again.

xx

OK so I squashed in another....

Just a quickie but, seeing as I am off to the Championships I was thinking back to the very first one I qualified for on Taz AKA Carryon My Nifty Guy. I was as nervous as hell and it shows in the video but anyway.

Ladies and Gentlemen I present the AQHA UK Open Western Pleasure Final 2004:



Oh and for good measure, here we are again earlier that season when he was ridden two handed...oh and I love this Suzi Boguss track...



Hey check me out with all this embedding!!! Good job I got done at my pre op early...right to the Championships......x

The Last Post...well for a little while...

Well this is me. I have a pre op assessment at the hospital tomorrow morning with various blood tests. Then it's bath the horse, pack the car and go.

The Championships start on Thursday and if I can I will try to squash a little blog in here and there (got my Blackberry with me)I will. I have two classes on Thursday and my two main runs for the Championships are on Saturday late on.

I get back early Sunday morning. That's right after I have polished off a full English Breakfast. Then I'm going to make sure I get a decent meal...Roast Beef i think before heading to the hospital for 8pm at night. You just know they are going to starve me after midnight :-)

I'm in for 5 days so I guess you can all enjoy the time off from my incessant ramblings...but the good news is...I'm going to be OK and what is more I am going to be myself again, I am confident of that now. Yes it's going to be a little rocky to start with while everything settles down but, I am really positive about the whole thing. You see that's how I normally am, Positive, you have to have a positive mental attitude or you won't succeed at all. I am going to win this battle, I have fought it for two years and I am going to come back stronger than a powered up Pac Man!!! I shall be a new WOMAN....well they keep telling me it's like being reborn! So bring it on!

So watch out world here I come.....and I can't wait to catch up with you all when I get back.

Adios Amigos xx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqjqFtC16-k

Houston we have a problem - continued

Oh and I forgot to mention..

Yes I know 4,000,000 americans got married last year and no I did not know that 2% of them met on eHarmony, nor do I care that you are now in the UK....

I AIN'T DOING IT!!!! YA HEAR ME???

Houston we have a problem...

OK I know I am trying to keep my health etc off this but, I do actually have a problem and as there is no other way for me to vent this, it goes here. If you don't want too much information then check out now.

Truth is, I'm worried. Now I know I have been telling myself that this is no big issue and that I can deal with it but, you know there are a couple of bits I need to get off my chest, so to speak.

What if I do feel like I'm not a woman anymore? I mean if they take everything out then what is left? What is there to make me a woman? OK two lumpy bits on the front will help but, will men have an issue with this? Will they think that I am less of a woman? Will that make me unattractive to them? I mean I want to think that I'll be the same and that I will still have that certain 'sparkle' but, what if I don't? I am shy enough at the best of times and yes, I do lack confidence on occasion but, if the bit that makes me 'sparkle' goes then what happens then? So you're all going 'What Sparkle? what is she on about?' Well a male friend told me that I have a certain 'sparkle' about me, now obviously I don't understand this but, he says men do! So OK if men can detect this 'sparkle' what if it disappears? I don't want to wind up alone with just my Greyhound for company!

I like being with someone, you know all that 'sharing stuff' I like that part of it. You know the bit where you make decisions together, like buying a sofa! You know I always wanted to do that, pick out a sofa, find one we both like by testing them all etc. I have never done that, I bet its fun. Which gets down to my pet hate...arm chairs....not exactly inspiring for a relationship where one likes to snuggle up to ones partner whilst watching a film or reading a book are they? I have an arm chair ban! I don't mind a really big one like a recliner but not those pathetic things. Oh and sharing the chores and helping each other. Supporting each other in activities, you don't have to have the same hobby, in fact it's healthy not to but, you need to know that your partner is proud of what you do. OK so not everyone likes big stinky horses but, If I come home at the end of the day with a beaming smile because something went fab, I like to know that the person I tell is actually pleased with me. It works the other way too, I like to think of myself as dead supportive, I mean I don't care what the hobby/sport/pastime is I'll be right there giving all the necessary support required, in whatever form it takes.

I'm wandering off the topic...or am I? Is that whats really bothering me? I like a partner I can play with...hmmm...by 'play' I mean mess about with, like play jokes on each other and play fight etc. I'm a huge fan of sticking Ice Cubes down backs cause that ends in a play fight which usually ends up as something else! I love to laugh and smile and I do it a lot. I'm a physical person and a bit 'touchy feely', I show affection in public and I don't care who is watching, I like to hold hands...OK so I'm 41 but, I like it...I'm not going to stop because I'm 41. I'm young at heart and I love fun and games.

I'm worried about sex! What if it's different? I mean I am not going to know until I try it but, what if..... You see my biggest problem is trusting a partner, not the general day to day trust but, the whole sexual aspect. You see I'm ashamed of the way I look and once I get past that with someone I'm OK but, initially I am timid and shy I'm fine once that trust is there. I'm very loving and loyal, I guess it stems from that kitty cat lion background! I don't like sex cheapened, it's a very personal thing. I like kisses, I like them a lot, they make you feel loved.

I don't like being shouted at in fact I hate it, nor do I like being sworn at. If I ever do something wrong I much prefer it if someone talks to me about it and how to resolve it. Confrontation makes me feel intimidated and small. I don't like crying, I have done to much of it. Men should not be afraid to cry, they are and they should not be, it does not make them weak.

So I guess I just want to know if I will still be seen as a woman and if I'll still be the type of partner someone would want and love? I guess it remains to be seen.....You know I'm not sure where I went with this blog but I feel a little better now even if I can't answer my own questions.

The last Sunday

Well this is my last sunday. This time next week I'll be in! Gosh it's come round quick. Blood test Wednesday for cross matching purposes but, that's enough of that.

Right so I went shopping today as it was my last chance to grab some odds and ends. You know just a few essentials...OK OK I got Gladiator on Blu Ray!!!! Medicinal reasons I swear :-) I also bought a set of extreemly tiny drill bits for my Dremmel so I can start work on the hull once I am back. Hey I should start a Titanic model blog!

TC and I had a good workout and he went well, makes me hopeful for a good run in the Championships. Have two classes on Thursday first. I am going to treat them as a dry run to help settle my nerves. I seriously don't expect him to place this year as there are some seriously more experienced horses out there but, he has qualified and I never expected him to qualify at all, so that is an achievement in itself. If I can go out there and have a good run on him, I'll be happy.

I have the McTimoney chiropractor coming tomorrow to check him over and adjust accordingly. McTimoney stimulates muscle groups to correct defects as opposed to trying to alter the joint itself, if that makes sense? TC has a slightly rotated pelvis that we are working on from where he had to stand badly because of his injuries. The muscle tone is back but, we need to straighten the pelvis. He has excercises to do and it's working slowly but can take a while to sort.

My stuff is sorted for the Championships, I just need to clean my saddle etc. I'll do that tomorrow after work. Have to iron a couple of things to pack for me.

Now if I could just find a cure for my nerves.......

Movies...

Having just finished watching a nice cheesy movie...Legally Blonde...I was thinking about some of the great movies that I love. These are the ones that I drag out time and time again.

Gladiator, Now I love this the visuals are amazing and I love the score. Obviously it's set in my favorite time period - The Romans! What a wonderful bunch they were. Joaquin Phoenix is absolutely brilliant and Russell Crowe really does take the part and make it his own. You can guarantee that I will be adding the Blu ray version to my 2 disc special edition and extended cut!

Bladerunner, Wow, wow, wow I know own every single version of this film from the original with the dodgy monologue that Harrison Ford did not want to do, to the Final Cut. Another recent addition to my Blu ray collection it's absolutely stunning in HD and for it's 25 years does not look dated at all.

Man on Fire, Oh this is an amazing film, had me totally engrossed from the word go. Denzel Washington plays the part to a tee. In fact I will not tell you about it in case you have not seen it!! Deja Vu is another must for Denzel Fans along with Philadelphia.

Lord of War, Nicolas Cage is great in this and it really does show the stupidity of arms trading and how intertwined it is with politics.

Cleopatra, now I have the original Liz Taylor, Richard Burton film and I think it's just wonderful. Sorry but the sight of Richard Burton in that white leather breast plate is quite enough for me! Is only slightly surpassed now by the sight of Russell Crowe, oh it makes a girls heart race...

Trilogy's....Well that has to be taken by Star Wars (the original three), Indiana Jones and The Lord of the Rings. That said I really enjoyed the 'Bourne' series too.

Musicals, well Evita gets my vote I saw this live on stage this year and it was absolutely wonderful. Not really a musical but, The Glen Miller Story holds a special place in my heart.

Titanic, is a great film, I have a strange obsession with that ship....

The Da Vinci Code and Angels and Demons, are two welcome new additions and have turned me into a big Dan Brown fan. Eagerly awaiting 'The Lost Symbol'.....

Casino Royal and Quantum of Solace are great everybody loves a Bond Film, I love them even more now they have Daniel Craig in them.. OK maybe I should stop at this point because I am going to wander into Actors and Actresses that I like, Maybe I shall do another blog on that.

Before I go though I feel I must venture into television slightly because I know its not a film but, it does have 5 films as off shoots....Babylon 5, it's amazing...Shadows, Narns, Minbari and my personal favourite....Vorlon's...

So I will leave you all with my favourite Kosh Quote:

When the avalanche has already started, it's to late for the pebbles to vote!

Calm in a storm

I don't know whats up with me today. I have been surronuded by people for pretty much most of the day but, feel somewhat lonely. I'm not down or low. So I don't know whats wrong. I feel ok. I think..... weird huh? Oh well I can thank Nickleback for getting me through with 'Far Away' damn I love that record.

So anyway, other than that I'm fine. This is my last full weekend to get some serious prep done before I leave for the Championships next week. Need to seriously work on the lope so it might involve a couple of intensive sessions. I have all my kit to get together over the weekend too. I guess it's going to be a pretty hectic week.

I have not even started work on the Titanic yet, well apart from preparing the hull for spraying. Once I get the Dremmel back I can drill the Portholes but that is not really going to happen now till after the operation.

One thing I have decided though, is that I am going to take a holiday next year. I have not had one in a couple of years and I really want to head back to the States. Was investigating flights earlier and they are not as dear as I thought. Gives me something to shoot for too...that said I have not been to Australia yet and I just know that my brother would love me to go over.

If that lottery win ever comes in then I am going to book that Titanic Memorial Cruise, now that would be something.