House Hunting...

OK so after a slight amount of incompetency on the Letting Agents part the house has gone...bugger!

So I have just come back from viewing another and the agent has just rung me and said that the landlord wants to sell after 6 months!!! So that's a none starter...have rung up about another one in an outlying village.....if they will let me have my dog I may view tomorrow afternoon.

I have only looked at two houses and I am bored already!!!!!

New beginnings

Ok So lets get it together here. So after much wrangling and shouting and then talking the whole thing is settled...FINALLY...it's only taken 6 months!!! I'm sorry I have been away so long but, I have just been 'through the mill' a bit really.

Right well today I have been and looked at a house to rent and it's lovely. Just been fully refurbished and decorated. A real 'Blank Canvas' on which I can 'Paint' my life. I will have a lounge, dining room, kitchen, bathroom and three bedrooms....the one I want is wonderful with a polished wood floor...lovely. Lucky for me I still have all my bedroom furniture and bed so my room will look great.

As for the others, well they are going to look a bit bare! You see I sold all my stuff when I moved out of my old house... Anyway, I guess the best thing is that I will get to rebuild my life and my home.....

If you want to have a look around my potential pad the click the link below.

http://www.rightmove.co.uk/property-to-rent/property-14287815.html?minPrice=400&maxPrice=500&minBedrooms=3&maxBedrooms=3&displayPropertyType=houses&oldDisplayPropertyType=houses&pageNumber=1&fromSummary=true&backToListURL=%2Fproperty-to-rent%2Ffind.html%3FsearchType%3DRENT%26locationIdentifier%3DREGION%255E977%26insId%3D1%26radius%3D0.0%26displayPropertyType%3Dhouses%26minBedrooms%3D3%26maxBedrooms%3D3%26minPrice%3D400%26maxPrice%3D500%26maxDaysSinceAdded%3D%26retirement%3D%26sortByPriceDescending%3D%26_includeLetAgreed%3Don%26primaryDisplayPropertyType%3D%26secondaryDisplayPropertyType%3D%26oldDisplayPropertyType%3D%26oldPrimaryDisplayPropertyType%3D%26letType%3D%26letFurnishType%3D%26houseFlatShare%3Dfalse%26x%3D54%26y%3D11

Happy Christmas (Part Deux)

Oh my god how wrong could I have been. Can't get any worse? oh yes it can.....

OK so as it is known I have split with my partner right? OK so, worse bit is because he has put me out of work as a result, I'm broke! so I am stuck here. Now the reason for the break up was that he is a control freak and I JUST CAN'T LIVE LIKE THAT ANYMORE!! So to make matters more complicated we ran the business together...equal (YEAH RIGHT) partners with 49% share holding each...he won't buy me out the company so I'm kind of captive...you following this so far?

Well we decided to shelve all hostilities till the new year and enjoy a Christmas and my daughter Hannah has come to stay (which is great because there is safety in numbers right? WRONG!) Now OK the relationship was over ages ago (June to be precise) but, this idiot really sealed the deal when he fronts up to my 20 year old daughter!!! On Christmas Day!!! So well you can't get much further over the 'line' than that so here I am on Boxing Day packing my bags and in the next few days I will be gone from here......

What kind of a guy fronts up to a 20 year old girl? One with a serious problem. So it's official Christmas SUCKS.... For obvious reasons I don't flaunt this on Facebook as he watches my profile so please, keep comments on here only..

Happy Christmas

You know I don't know why I am so happy at Christmas as I have so many problems at the moment. Your basic unemployed, no income, about to be homeless type of problems but, I have my health, I feel great and I have an amazing daughter and friends.....so Happy Christmas to you all....2010 can't be any worse now can it? xxx

It's all about me....

This is me....taken on the 6th of December. A little over two months after surgery.

How do I feel?........... you know I can not remember when I last felt this good. It's almost like being 21 again, which is pretty good as I am in fact 41.

I have found a smile that has been missing for some time.

I am no longer in pain.

I feel like I have not felt in years.

I feel happy.

I feel content.

I am unemployed but, I do not feel in despair....

I feel like I can take on the world and despite that fact that I have some major problems to deal with, I am not at all worried and still find it easy to smile.

I feel self confident.

I feel feminine.

I feel atractive.

I can think with clarity.

I have energy.

I have 'Get up and Go'

I can sleep through the whole night without waking. I never slept all night for 3 years prior to this.

I feel radient.

I have wonderful friends who have made so many wonderful comments to make me feel so great.

I have the support of my daughter.

I laugh and smile all the time.

In short it's the most amazing feeling in the world.....I feel reborn.

The person you see in the photograph is the person that I was born to be....

I feel alive!!

I am here honest...

Just a quick note.

I am here honest it's just I have some major shit going on over here and I am having to pay some serious attention to job hunting etc. So please stick with me while I get my act together.

I thank you for your patience.

Fe xx

I think I should start living by some of these...

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit card debts every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Sometimes, just agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time some time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come - this is particularly true at my age of 90!

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.